silimba

so these next couple of months, i am going through old pictures, maybe to help rediscover who i am.  yes this could be about "identity" which i feel i've lost ever since waking up 15 years ago.  this could be about "value" which i'm told i have but i also feel was lost.  well, i think i've looked at others' value and maybe to the point where i ignore mine.  i am not going to live by the tapes that make fun of me for posting pictures of who God created, "me".  i'm not gonna stop saying i'm beautiful or wonderful because the church tells me to stop because it is vanity.  i am alive and valuable and purposeful and no body can take that truth away from me cause it comes from God.  and this isn't being possessive it is being confident in how God made me.  when i see hospital pictures of me, i see ugly.  i am ashamed.  but that is not how God made me.

so, ok, going back in time, a bit, and crossing the ocean.  this one is from Africa.  i must have been in 7th grade just before kansas city christian school told me i am not allowed back to school for my 8th grade year.  funny.