EBC Youth Atlanta Trip Summer 1999

i just set up my new printer/scanner! and since i've been going through a lot of picture albums from my past, for the remainder of my life i am going to revizit the good. the good memories. the good times. the good people. the good friends. the good family. the good trips. the good experiences. the good in general. i am alive! and for me to consider there to be any good for that, i've gotta stick with what makes me smile. wow! 1998 i was presumed DEAD! and since then, i'm not. i smile because i can :-D HAHA! going through the bins and picture albums of me and my x that spanned over a decade, i am a smiling FREAK! she and i smiled so much! friends and i smiled so much! strangers and i smiled, co workers and i smiled, family members and i smiled! i'm now realizing that people always thought i was strange walking around with my camera, taking pictures of everything and everyone. i was accused of being a "STALKER"! HA HA i laugh. i will still laugh. and smile from these wonderful memories. wonderful friends. this is DAY number one on my journey revisiting the good from my past. these photos were taken on an Atlanta Mission Trip with a youth group at Emmanuel Baptist Church. i got to go as the videographer. this of course was during the time when i was going through radiation treatments and, inside, i hated life. but these kids really really helped me get past that. youth do a great job of helping us look past some hardships. 

April's music from the past

i had the great opportunity to play at Johnson County Community Colleges Battle of the Bands back in 2003.  i played all songs i wrote and found these two guys to accompany me with an egg shaker and my African djembe.  after Zach played he wanted to play anymore shows with me, and he did.  we played for a fund raiser trip later that fall.  it went great.

and in 2002 when i was regularly playing for Border's book store in Olathe, i invited my friend to join me with her singing.  she was in high school but a nature vocalist.  she didn't play the guitar but we exchanged instruments, voi and gui, to please the crowd.  and we did.

B4 June's Departure: 6/12

this revizit totally begins on the 1st June!  a sunday!  i filmed a wedding and one of the guests was a good friend i hadn't seen since high school.   and there was a photo booth!

  

 just before my band Smorez played this show at the Festival of the Arts in Bonner Springs, i cooked me this fantastic breakfast!  oh yummmm

 and i visited the Legends one Sunday evening when i didn't have to work.  the Legends is one of a great plaza like shopping experiences.  went to Jazz.  went to a bookstore and i might get some journals there.

 at a library i was doing my taxes, i drew this.  and what a coincidence, a friend named Drew was there!

seriously!

 this June marked the time when our good friend and good worker at SMBV, seegul, left for college.

 and as i began my following my calling, i drew this map of what it might look like for me.

i am still debating the time to leave.  i am waiting for absolute instruction from Trin.

 and i AM brave enough.

ain't no doubt.

 i will first Live by acknowledging i am Alive.

i will Love myself because i Love my creatorz and i Love the rest of Their creation.

i will Listen to what soothes the soul.

i will Speak only what i would want spoken to me and i will Speak only when spoken to.

B4 May's Departure: 5/12

 so canvas has been going good.  lots of good notes.  the talks have been on hebrews.  been going to church of the harvest a couple times.  one was on mothers day.  good donuts.  and a good thing at heartland too.  the talk was about "tipping point".  very very interesting.

 this is my NEW acustic bass guitar gig bag!  i finally found one!!!

here is another after midnight trip to Steak n Shake.  good to see Elijah with us!

we also went to Crown Center and the Cheesecake Factory on the Plaza and wow, was it FUN!!

 weird .........

and weirder .......

B4 April's departure: 4/12

this april, 2014 was filled with new friends, new experiences like seeing a movie at AMC30 that i haven't been to in a long time.  also, a job ended on a sunday and in the evening a new job began.  seriously!  Canvas has been going really good.  the messages are good and i like having gone through hebrews for this time period.  got to do some service on good friday.  had some small issues with finances and bills but God quickly rectified them.  my truck was out of commission for a week but it is now running great.  and i was out of power for a week too, but God's got me covered again.  it is just how it is.  not supposed to be or expected to be.  

there are definitely some control issues coming my way.  i am very apparent to them, as i always have been.  control by "leadership" of the same organizations that choke me out!  

i rejoice in the Lord though, that the world receives me.  yes, even though i have some weirdnesses, my fellow work mates at my jobs, and my bosses,  do not discriminate me.  like church does.  

i am still uncomfortable with the prejudices being allocated within "ministry".

but that is the life of a prophet.

i have uncovered some key verses from Scriptura and they are affirming the plans laid for me.

plans dealing with "gardening/orchard" and "demons/fallen angels" and "writing/recording".

i am so excited to not only uncover more of these plans for my life, but to decipher them.

and most will be assimilated with music ♫♪♪♫♫♪♪♪

new made friendships will falter.
rekindled interests will dim to darkness.
leadership will always discriminate and follow itself rather than Trinity.
i will walk the Way. i will stay focused on Truth.  and i will live with the Life.

namaste

April 1 2014 no foolin'

April 1 2014.  no foolin' :-)

so glad i got to have morning coffee and discuss some things ...

then in the evening, after Canvas, me and Gabi went and saw, "God's Not Dead".  

really good movie!

B4 March's departure: 3/12

So far, this March has been the funnest March of 2014.  pretty much with the amount of photos i got to take.  Lights.  Midnights.  People.  so let's go down the hallway of pictures for my March of 2014!!!

 cool boys

fun FUN friend Amber.  we both wear glasses.

my friend Gabi brought back this coffee from El Salvador just for me!

 i remember we camped out and only around 2am did it feel a little chilly.

 good few friends from Canvas!

Jeremiah and Yiskah were both taught by my father at some point of their young life.  and now they're all grown up!





Larry Garrett and his song circle at Foo's!  i got to play about 5 of my songs.

 I like breakfast!  yummmmm

Yes, this month was a lot happier than February.  and January.  once April hits, i don't know what that will bring.  I keep thinking of getting out of here, though.  not to find happiness elsewhere, but to get away from the pain.  even my sweet tooth (for Strawberry Cheesecake Ice Cream) doesn't last long.

there seems to be only ONE thing that lasts forever.  at least i'm a part of it.

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namaste